January 07, 2005

me.
i have been called a lot of things.

bitch.
selfish.
pretty.
cunt.
cute.
ass.
self-absorbed.
ignorant.
nice.
thoughtful.
pice-of-shit.
funny.
crazy.
dumbass.
psychopath.
naughty.
etc...

some good words but a lot of pretty harsh ones as well. a lot of them were said jokingly, but there are also ones that were uttered with anger and frustration. sometimes these words are warranted in one way or another. i've given people the reason to use them on me. they apply during the times i was bestowed these titles. but most of the time i would just let them roll of my back. i'd laugh and keep on my merry way. frankly, i just don't care.

this brings me to another word: immature. i have been called that plenty of times, mostly when i was younger and by my mother. i remember when i was seven or eight years old, kids called me 'olive oil' from that cartoon, popeye, because i was skinny as hell. i would go home crying and naturally, my mom asked why. i tell her, and she would say 'ahhh.. you're acting immature, stop crying'. when i was 15, i came home crying from ballet class because again, i was kept in the back of the class coz i was too tall (for a Filipino). i told my mom i didn't want to dance ballet anymore and she said 'ahhh... you're being immature'. and even though she knew how much i loved ballet, she let me quit. upto this day she believes that i willed myself from growing because of that traumatic experience.

just a couple of days ago, i called myself immature. well, actually, i found a friend's friend's joke funny and apparently the only ones that saw the humour in the prank were the immature college friends of this person. so, since i found the same humour in it, i have categorized myself as an immature person, yet again. and i didn't even need the help of my mommy.

anyway, i am immature. i pull pranks on people. and laugh at the pranks that other people pull on me. if you look at my pictures, 9 out of 10 you'll see me with a goofy smile on my face. my priorities are all over the place (and are therefor not priorities?). i like being spontaneous and do spare of the moment activities. i dance around in my house not caring who's watching. i'm in-love with my dog and doesn't see reproduction in my near future. etcetera.

so yeah, this is me. i am immature. i'm childish to the core. there's no denying that. i'm not about to pretend i'm someone else. i'm not about to do things that other people like doing just so i can be 'in the circle'. i'm not about to use eloquent words to make you think i'm smarter than i am (coz in fact, i have been called stupid). i am not about to pretend i'm happy when i'm not, and pretend i'm sad around people just coz they are when everything is right in my world, but don't be quick to say that i don't care. coz it may seem like i don't care most of the time, but who are you to judge?

Comments:

I have some words for you beeyatch.

Fun
Funny
Selfless
Generous
Caring
Smart
A Damn Good Friend.

Because that's what you are to me, and well that's all that matters because those other people saying bad thigns about you are dildoes.

# posted by  Riss : January 07, 2005 12:40 PM

 

from one beeyatch to another - i love you!!!

# posted by  G. : January 07, 2005 1:31 PM

 

Mrs. Voodoo says maybe immature, but then again when is that a bad thing? at least you're not smearing poo on your face, darling.

Wedding pics? Hmm. I'll email you ;-)

# posted by  CLS : January 08, 2005 12:48 AM

 

i don't smear poop on my face but i haven't been around poop when drunk!

i'll wait for the pics in my inbox!

# posted by  G. : January 09, 2005 4:58 PM

 

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